One Week IN… and Reality is Setting IN…

I’ve had some great cuddle time with my guy…lots of silent time just looking at each other… lots of tears… and lots of laughs, which knowing us must be quite a shocker to you all… I just put a movie on for us and true to Tim-style, he fell asleep… makes me laugh… and now is making me cry…

One Week In and Reality is Settling In

I sit here and stare at him, touch his warm skin and smell his hair… watch him breath… and just wonder if this is really happening… it can’t be, right?  I mean my Husband DOES for everyone, he gives to everyone, he does not burn bridges, he does not make enemies… he gives and gives and gives and gives… why I ask… I cannot stop wondering what makes God think that I can possibly handle this… I am SO optimistic and I SO know that we are an incredibly strong couple and we can and WILL GET THIS… but if I’m truly honest, I have my moments and am having one now as I lay here awake, watching him – its so quiet in this big house… the girls are gone to Myrtle Beach on vacation and my beautiful Tim lay here and I cannot help him… I cannot do a DMAN thing to help this wonderful person – my best friend.  I mean exactly ONE WEEK AGO, we were hanging around the house just hanging together while the girls ran around crazy with their sleepover friends… and we prepped for Mackenzie’s Birthday Party… and now we are here.  Oh my dear friends… we sit amazed at how we’ve heard on the news or lost people we love and we read all of those sayings and quotes that tell you to live every day as if its your last, live without regret and always love with all of your heart and to forgive, to not hold on to grudges… I beg of all of you to right now, let go of everything that consumes you and if just for 10 minutes, you hold your Spouse/your Partner/your Children so tight.  Think of nothing but how thankful you are to have them… hear them breath, feel their skin – really feel it, look at them – look deep in to their eyes, kiss them – taste the taste of their lips/cheek and then speak and be sure to tell them, you love them – really tell them.  Have a beautiful Friday night – XOXO, Denise

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